Saturday, May 28, 2005
Sports Carnival 2005
Last moments...
Tonight, let
The curtains close
The audience applause
Hear the roars of voices
Hear their claps
Hear their compliments and praises
And WE
Take a final bow
To the years we have spent
Which are slowly ending
Dissolving slowly
For just an hour or two
As we recall the sweet memories
That seem right now too few
Gathered all together
We will not say goodbye
For the thoughts that will prevail
And the memories that will never die
But remain
Carved and sealed
And cherished forever
In our hearts
Done by Rusydiah
Dedicated to anyone who needs it :-)
Sports Carnival this year was a BLAST!!!!! Everyone in my class had a lot of fun(i think so). Me,Syamira,Fiona,Dalilah helped Jiawen's IPW group with the selling of food...Well, I had great fun...I guess that we can say that we sold everything....If I'm not wrong, collected abt 300plus...Even if our class didn't really win any races, we were not at a loss...We gained experience and our class sort of became more united?!(maybe) At the tag game, our class lost...Never mind...but after Sports Carnival ended, alomost the whole class took a class photo....it was almost a perfect ending to the day...All of us then went home...I guess it's a perfect ending to term 2...But all these will not last...So many people going separate ways....sigh....never mind...put the bad things behind....stay positive....If I can hold on.
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Places: The Underground Tunnel and Gun Emplacement
Places: The Underground Tunnel and Gun EmplacementFriday, May 20, 2005
To go or not to go...That is the question
Lost in a desert full of misery.I look around and saw no life.I was alone.Very alone.I looked up and all I could see was nothing.I knew it was going to pour soon.I could hear thunder from a far.Confused and lost in this maze.Don't know what to do.But I still continued walking.I look in front and saw two passages.Both filled with bright,white light.Oh so very pure.There were no other place to go.I had to chose one of these passages.Right or left.Both seem to good to be true.I sensed that one these passages will lead me far to a place where I could go and be free.The other will lead me to a place whereI'll be there for a long time. Deep down in the wells of my heart,I wanted to be free.I didn't know what to do.Or where to go.I pray to god to show me and lead me to the correct path. Feeling confused and depressed at the same time, I knew I couldn't think straight at that time.Need help but no one was there.
Time: 9.45 am
Venue: Class
I just finished talking to teacher.I went back to my seat.Called my mother.We talked and discussed about something considered important to me.Concerning my future.That really scared me to death.My future.After I hung up, I sat at my seat staring into space,thinking hard.Almost everyone was in class.I continued to think.The more I think, the more I couldn't control my feelings. I just couldn't control my emotions.Anymore.Tears rolled down my cheeks.One by one more came out.Pouring out.No one heard me.No one saw me.No one seem to know me.No one.Even the person sitting beside me didn't bother at all.No one knew I existed at that time.No one.I continued crying.Everyone was too happy and busy in their own world,leaving me out like an outcast.The more I think about it, the more I cried.More than 10 minutes passed, and yet no one even cared.I heard people around me laughing and talking.I wished I could do that.I was scared.Afraid of what was to happen to me.Tears continued rolling down my face.Suddenly,I heard a voice.Voice from my darling friend.I hid my face so she couldn't see I was crying.But she knew I was crying.I was too overwhelmed.I started crying more.The more I cried the wider my wound in my heart is bleeds.I just didn't know what to do.But no one cared.No one....
Time: 9.45 am
Venue: Class
I just finished talking to teacher.I went back to my seat.Called my mother.We talked and discussed about something considered important to me.Concerning my future.That really scared me to death.My future.After I hung up, I sat at my seat staring into space,thinking hard.Almost everyone was in class.I continued to think.The more I think, the more I couldn't control my feelings. I just couldn't control my emotions.Anymore.Tears rolled down my cheeks.One by one more came out.Pouring out.No one heard me.No one saw me.No one seem to know me.No one.Even the person sitting beside me didn't bother at all.No one knew I existed at that time.No one.I continued crying.Everyone was too happy and busy in their own world,leaving me out like an outcast.The more I think about it, the more I cried.More than 10 minutes passed, and yet no one even cared.I heard people around me laughing and talking.I wished I could do that.I was scared.Afraid of what was to happen to me.Tears continued rolling down my face.Suddenly,I heard a voice.Voice from my darling friend.I hid my face so she couldn't see I was crying.But she knew I was crying.I was too overwhelmed.I started crying more.The more I cried the wider my wound in my heart is bleeds.I just didn't know what to do.But no one cared.No one....
Sunday, May 15, 2005
Feelings are strong I realise.
Should I be happy that I chose what I chose?I feel happy and sad at the same time.Should I regret what I chose?Will I be able to enjoy myself there?Its like everybody over there are soo clever.Their English is superb.There were very little people from my school.Now, I've got second thoughts on going to this thing.I just don't know what to do or how I should feel.Feelings are really strong I realise.Should I feel delighted or regretful?I just don't know.I'm really confused.Now I have started to think that this miming thing isn't that bad after all.I think I would be glad to join miming workshop.It will probably give me more confidence.Since mimng is just moving aroung making gestures, I guess it will boost my confidence an self-esteem.Like the saying goes "Actions speaks louder than words".Please let this be a good thing.Bottomline, I guess this workshop I've taken up won't be a bad thing after all.I hope.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
FRIDAY THE 13th....
Hmmm....Anyone realise that today is Friday the 13?Of course everyone must have known that.I'll tell what happened today to me....7.10 am I woke up feeling sort of crappy and happy at the same time.Weird huh? I took my time to get ready to go out.Sigh...For IPW.Just so sad that no one wants to support us for IPW.Some friends I've got....Sigh....
7.30 am Went out of the house to meet my friends.Let me list them in alphabetical order. Bavani, Chan Li Yi, Fiona, Nur Syamira, Raja Nur Dalilah.
7.35 am Met Syamira at Sembawang MRT station.
7.45-7.50 am Met Dalilah, Bavani and Fiona or should I say shoe cleaner(this info will soon make sense in the later part of today) at Yishun MRT station.Then we proceeded to McDonalds.
8.00 am There we had to wait for our guest of honour....try guessing who...who else can it be..the one and only "Chan Li Yi" You know...BBQ. She was still at home doing some research or I should say last minute research.
8.30 am Li Yi arrived at last. NO!!! Guest of honour arrived.She said she was really tired because she was practically awake that whole night. Talking on the phone.I'm quite worried about her....
9.00 am We parted from Northpoint Mcdonald. We had to go to the primary schools we were assigned to.Sigh...Here comes my whole day ahead...]
9.05 Me and Fiona were at Yishun bus interchange.
9.09 am Fiona clumsily tried to wear her name tag...Then she BROKE it!hahaha...I was laughing out loud.She says she's trying to make it straight.
9.15 am In the bus with Fiona.
9.44 am Came out of Northland Primary School. Fiona says we were kicked out.Not actually.We just wanted to tell them more about our charity drive...sigh...
9.53 am I freaked out!Why? Because I saw a tree lizard.I almost stepped on that poor creature.Now I've learnt my lesson.Never to walk on grss patches.
Time from 10.00 to 11.15 me and Fiona were going to primary schools publicizing our IPW project.
11.20 am Guess what? I freaked out again! Why? Ask Fiona for more info. Fiona was talking on the phone .Talking to Li Yi. I had said before that I will never walk on grass patches.But it seems that I had forgotten about that.So I was walking on grass patches.Suddenly Fiona said "Eh Rusydiah! Something at your shoe!". So I started shouting and jumping. Obviously even Li Yi who was talking to Fiona could hear my screams. Li Yi and Syamira were laughing when they heard my screams( I think so) through the phone.Sigh...then... I thought Fiona saw an insect or something.I looked down and saw what I thought was 'Dog Shit'.Looks brown.Then, I looked closer.It was just mud.Freaked out for nothing.So I took out some tissues and cleaned my shoe.Fiona who was ever so helpful, helped me clean my shoe with just one tissue.Thanks Fiona or should I say 'Shoe Cleaner'....hehes...
12.01 pm Finished all the primary schools we're suppoed to do.Hmmm...at least we got one success on one school.yeah!So cool ,fun and tiring to do this.Although we had to walk from Northview to Naval Base.It was so long. It was fun because we talked a lot.
12.05 pm In the bus 811E with Fiona.Heading towards Yishun bus interchange.We walked from Northland to Huamin.From Huamin to Northview.From Northview to Naval Base.We walked!!!!to go to this schools.Can you believe it? It was like the whole of Yishun.In the hot, glaring sun.Without any merciful shelter.Sigh...
Then I had to go for CAP briefing.Now, I really don't want to go for the camp.Why the hell did I choose to join the miming workshop??Someone help me.I'm trapped.As if there's anyone who's kind to help.Sigh....
I will just stop there.I really think that Friday the 13th is really unlucky.Please help me...sigh...There's nothing else I can do but just pray that I won't be selected for this miming workshop....sigh...
Sunday, May 08, 2005
Exams...
Ecstatic that my nightmare has finally ceased...BUT
disappointed at what had happened recently...Exams are over!!!!Phew! I'm tired...I'm totally sick and tired of exams...But still there's only grammar test left...Never mind...I can't wait when its officially over.
I'm just sad and angry about something which occurred recently.I can't believe that they just left like that.Not even a goodbye.Some friends they are.Didn't even think of us.As if we're invisible.As if we didn't existed.I can tell u guys(u know who u are, don't act dumb...unless ur not acting) that some of us...hmmm...are pretty mad about it.But never mind...As though u guys care.
Hmmm....wonder what will they become when I'm gone....
